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The final stretch

2006-12-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

its kinda weird that my school will resume only next march and that is when my degree program will start. i'm really looking forward to this new phase or the next level in my pursuit for higher knowledge.

in the midst of doing my graduation project. gonna do public relations campaign for an organisation. initially was thinking of expanding my previous topic, STOMP, which i top in class of course. God is wonderful. i was thinking to myself if i want to challenge myself again and at the same time benefit an organisation, why not do a PR campaign on Hope centre. i think its a great idea. it'll help to build their profile and create graeter awareness that Hope centre exist to help those in need.

PTL! He's blessed me with another distinction for advertising. now its journalism. really stressed out just waiting for that result slip to arrive. my daily routine once i reach home is to open up the letter box. stressed!! that explains why those evil pimples are popping up.

i've made up my mind to pursue corporate communications as it'll allow me to bring home the dough. i was really looking forward to the 3 weeks study stint in oaklahoma but i have to give it all up as i have to think of what will benefit me in future. no doubt the degree offered in OCU is broader, teaches more things but in a span of 9 months, i discover a new side of me that i didnt know i have and that is to be a public relations campaigner. lets see what God has in store for me next year.

as the year comes to a close, soon, the usual things is on my mind. usually its rehearsal and practise with th echoir, stressing over the program. all that was in WAM but things have changed. i'm doing things on a bigger scale now. the opportunities are way "better" as it allows me to really use my gifts.

this year i'm running the x-mas service together with cara, katy and shuz. cara will the the main stage manager while katy hold the position of deputy SM and as for shuz and i, we'll be runners. yes i know alot of people are jealous cos we get to serve God and exercise at the same time cos we'll be running around alot. cara and i have decided that no matter what we must be glam and sophisticated when we run around screaming our lungs out, chasing people to go on stage etc. what should i wear? did i mention that service is at kallang theatre? yes and its big scale. the props are huge.

this entire week after our sm meeting and attending the rehearsal, i realise its all very real. we are indeed serious about this whole "people business". really need to pray and intercede for all who are participating. God spoke to me in Rom 7:19 "For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing." indeed in times like this the more we need to pray and depend on God for strength, alertness.

Pick it up DVD is great!!!! their opening number was spectacular. the lights was stupendous. wonder if i'll have the chance to sing majesty in adults service. just sing slower lor. hahaha! another song i'm really hoping that will be sung is "I'm forever yours". its a beautiful song. mama jac, lead this song leh.

looking forward to tml cos its time for me to do some shopping. i badly need to buy x-mas gifts
and also to pamper myself. lets see what i can get. till next time

i was bored so i blog (from studies need a break)

2006-11-08T15:13:00.000+08:00

i was watching past seasons of 'Survivor' and it just dawned on me why certain player are chosen to participate in this game.

just by being a fan of the show alone does not entitle you to the million dollars. i really question why some players seemingly are the worst kind(in terms of how they play it) could get to the last 4 or even the final 2. it just proved that by being dumb you'll have a great chance of winning. just make sure you're always around the camp, be nice, vote with the majority, dun strategize too much cos you should leave the strategizing to the smarty pants, do your chores and you'll be guaranteed to at least be part of the jury.

sometimes i just feel that the americans are a bunch of wackos. perhaps its because of their culture, political inclination and social status that is why i would say most of the time the ultimate winner never seem to be who it should be. in my opinion, richard hatch(original survivor winner) gave alot of players the tactics on how to play the game which is to form alliances. isn't that what it is when it comes to our work? we form "alliances" so as to make our life at work more comfortable and pleasant. no matter how trusting they are you just can't really trust them fully. there's always a bit of suspicion about the person. is it me or does everyone feel the same way as i do. hmmm...

here's what i think are the qualities that will help you win survivor;

be genuinely nice to people.
be sincere when you get to know each other.
despite the lack of food and heat, suck it up and continue to contribute.
dun complain
be cheerful and be the life of the party
if you cant fulfil the previous quality bring a game there and teach it to them. it helps to entertain everyone.
give your all in challenges.
be sensitive and descerning.
dun be paranoid.
train yourself to have a strong stomach cos you might need to eat god knows what.
always share.
be truthful and dun lie cos it will come back and bite you in your ass.
lastly ask your sub-district to intercede for you. hold prayer meeting every week to pray for you.

i think i can win survivor.

What a Night!

2006-10-14T00:52:00.000+08:00

OKTOBERFEST ROXXXXXX!!!!!

started the day at work. had sales presentation. woke up at 6am. the presentation was so-so. expected lah. =P saw june. Mr teo was invited to lead worship. finally no more assignment but i have a feeling that i'm not gonna do very well for these 1 assignment. the spark was not there.

went for class after work. submitted assignment. had dinner with my classmate. kew she's going to Poland for their arts festival. she and her troup has beem invited to perform at the festival. incredible.

left during break. went to commissioning ss. prayed for thong seng and joseph. was part of the mcss team but didnt dare go fwd cos my name was not there. later ppl say i think skin. hahahaha.. just kidding. i reaffirmed my committmentto the CP team at my seat.

the most exciting part is oktoberfest!. davyd and i were both very excited to be there. like small boy lidat. saw alot of things at the fest. glad i'm sanctified. God knows what i'll do if i'm a non believer. both of us made a toast to more converts during xmas. though the event is very secular in nature, its the company that matters. though i didn't go mad i was still happy to share the moment with my sheep. many more wonderful moments to come. saw a lot of crazy people. dancing on the table. saw glenn ong. saw soem carzy girls dancing on the table. both of us were ready to jump away if the girls fall off the table. dun expect us to catch them. we might be crushed by them. hahaha.

didn't stay long. we figured that it'll be the same whether we stay till late or not so we left early. but seriously the band was great. i would go again. for the band not the food or the beer. those are secondary. anyway i enjoyed every bit of it. too bad i dunno how to post the photos if not i could show how siow those ppl are. both of us reached home sober not drunk. my post is lidat cos i'm super tired. dun want to wait till tml or other days to post cos the feeling would be different.

anf weidersen

Closing Time

2006-09-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

indeed the 15th anniversary celebration was spectacular. it really opens up another chapter in our life as an individual as well as our life in church. anticipating many more good years in church. well done emma. you did great though i know you're stress like seow. cara you did alot of running. you seemed to have slimmed down even more after that. =)

the experience was great, atmosphere was electrifying and exhilirating, the presentation took my breathe away. i personally liked the medley cos i can hear the voices of joanne and gwen. well done gals. was a fan of their voice.

the finale was the best but too short. with the explosion of the confetti, it brought the celebration to a whole new level. it really feels like a concert. very the drama. like in some tv show lidat.

the party after the anniversary was stupendous. i've never enjoyed so much for a long long time. the dinner at sushi tei, the chilling out at Harry's and photo taking at various places. i thank God that i have friends to share these moments with, timothy, susi, livi, weiling, shuping. it was great fun. would have loved to stay at home the following day to really rest and relax but went out for dmm. another round of makan. as if i've not enjoyed enough the previous night.

the gals are really evil, they really took the opportunity to fish out details from me on certain thing. thank God i was awake enough not to be duped into revealing stuff, though i was abit tipsy. looking forward to the next session. building stronger covenanted relationship.

after the meeting on sunday i was at the police station. not that i got into trouble but was there to pay a visit to davyd. cannot mention where lah but i'm glad that i got to see him at work and in his uniform. i'm the 3rd person to see him in his uniform. the honor is mine. anyway i realised that its not the chasing or patrolling that strains you but its the desk job part that really test you. i was quite freaked out when this mad man came in and chatted with davyd. he was harmless though but i was kinda scared. need some getting used to. then there were other cases that test your liguistic skills. you really need to know how to speak a few languages. it helps. was there till he closed "shop". it feels good to have a bodyguard cos he was "escorting" me to the bus stop. people must be thinking that i'm some kind of VIP as they walk pass us. was not a wasted trip at all.

p.s: if you are reading this, those thing that we talked about is our secret. shhh.....

as the end of the anniversary celebration signifies the opening of a new chapter of Hope church, it also means the opening of another chapter of my life as a 26yo. am anticipating new thing and greater things. i'm waiting God....

auf weidersen

1 year on...

2006-09-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

its been almost a year since i've moved on to the adults group. technically its past 1 year cos our farewell(TWAM) was held at the end of august but nicole and gang was away for missions trip so we were held back. thought we could relax and do nothing in the ex cg but a certain someone still roster us for duties. might as well use right since we're still there. dun waste talent. tsk tsk tsk.... terrible right. =p

anyway it sthat time of the year to evaluate. coincidently, my 1st anniversary falls on the same day as my birthday. it makes it a whole lot easier to remember. just the other day i was asking davyd when he came over and both of us couldn't recall the day but on the month. anyway he got to know the group during dinner after water baptism, ronnie's water baptism. wonder how is he doing? sorta missed him and his company....

so what has been some of the memorable/breakthroughs yada yada events for the past year. lets break it down....

at the top of my list is definately the amount of grace that God has showered upon me in terms of studies. i've never testified so much about studies. when i was in poly, i was the last person people will approach to testify about this area or to teach them in their field of studies. i was never good at my studies... then. i dunno why but it seems to me that i belonged to the communications line of studies. i've been doing very well in school. so far i've taken 4 modules, aceing all my assignments except for a single B and topping one of them. my overall grade has been encouraging. getting all Bs and just yesterday, i've received my results for my Public relations module and PTL i've gotten DISTINCTION!!!!! incindently this module was the one i topped in my assignment. (P.S: shuping if i can do it, you can do it too. jia you!)

just last sunday, pastor jeff was preaching about the growth of the kingdom. the 2nd point about permeating spoke to me alot. it reminded me of my studies and a short conversation i had with p.j last nov. he saw me at S11 and asked me how i was doing in the adults. as usual my answer was "ok loh". i always find it hard to answer this kind of question but i know i was far from ok. but if today he was to come up to me and ask me the same question, my respond will be far from ok. i would tell him that i'm living life, never been better, living the kind of life that hopfully is pleasing in His(God) eyes, that will bring a smile to His face.

Lecture mates are looking up to me, thats how i feel lah. really anot i dunno but it seems like it is loh. trust me, if you think they are not watching your every move, you are wrong. they are watching you and guessing your move. so gotta be careful in sending out your message. so far my message has been positively received. those of my leacture mates who've worked with me in projects expects me to get dinstinction for my exams and some thinks that with me in their group projects, it will all work out fine. i'm like hot property now!!! hehehe...

enough about studies. lets talk about other things. church ministry.

i'm thankful to all those SPT experiences that i had cos now i'm involved in ESS brainstorming. to them its a new "ministry/concept" which to me has been long over due cos SPt has been around for so long in the youth. so i'm glad i can put into good use my experiences in this new team. indeed this team is new. basically there are 6 of us, emma(I/C), katy, penny, cindy, peikey and myself. yes if you've noticed, the entire team except for me belongs to the fairer sex but not weak. better clarify if not kena hantum by them. it seems to me that i'm always being thrown into a situation where i'm the only guy in the planning team or a guy leading an all gals team. the last incident was during adults camp where i had to lead an all gals team to prepare a showcase. so this team has great energy, great synergy and most of all mature, successful and experienced christians. one's a private banker and she's only 28, another works for The body Shop, another a copy writer, the others i forgot liao.

and so i met the team 3 weeks ago to plan for the first time. met emma at reffle splace and my goodness, i could feel the energy from the passers-by when i was sitting on the raffles green reading my book. its like those drama serial when a young professional was looking at the building and the people, feeding off the energy that was being exuded from the people. i've made up my mind. i want to work in raffles place after i grad from my adv dip program. more about my encounter with emma at raffles. so she was dressed in a suit, as expected. a conversation took place...

emma: you wanna accompany me to buy something
me: sure
emma: the shop is downstairs. i'm buying moisturiser

we were walking towards the shop when i asked...

me: emma would people think that you are my suga-mama cos of how you dress.
emma: (laughing hysterically) wah! that means you say i'm old izit..... (continue to laugh)
me: not that you are old but i look young. (both of us laugh)

well that was an adventure in itself..... btw both emma and i have shoe fetish. we both admire jimmy choo.

anyway, i've come to realise that everytime when i'm on stage managing duty some weird stuff is bound to happen. just last week, a visitor from another church started to prophesy loudly after worship ended. myself and emma both jumped out of our seat and sprang into action. all was solved cos pastor lo was there. thank God. another incident was during familt ties. the GOH has just walked into the hall when suddenly this crazy woman started to scream and argue with another person. the timing couldn't have been more perfect. all of us were shocked. even the host was shock even though he was conducting games on stage at that moment. but all was solved. anyway cara and emma say that God is moving. i would say God is testing me. hahaha

another thing that i've learnt since moving was the importance of keeping in touch. keeping in touch need not be meeting up in person but can be covering the person in prayer but its best to meet lah. anyway i've gotten a chance to meet up sam last month after i think 3 years of not meeting each other for kopi. i also got into contact with 1 of my sec 1 & 2 classmate. coincindentally he's studying in the same school as me now but different course. we get to see each other on fri cos we both have class on friday. he hasn't changed much thats way we still are able to recongise each other. imagine its been ten years, a decade already. time flies. but i'm glad to see him. it got me into action. i now am trying to get contacts of my friends from past and present. army included. i now cherish friends more.

God has also bless me with a great sheep, an understanding one, a hungry grand sheep, a good cg and a patient shepherd. not forgetting sdl and ul. if i dun mention my ul she will comment again. =p

my birthday will be in a few days time. this sat will be our church's 15th anniversary. i've been in church for 8 years. how have i grown? how have i fared in God's eyes? from esmond's mouth and i quote "he have changed". i'm expecting more and waiting in anticipation for God's plan to unfold in my life. i'm on to greater things and i know my desires will be honored one day. God you know hor... =)

auf weidersen and happy bdae to me.

Birthday celebrations, presents and all the headache

2006-08-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

have you ever found it easy to buy a birthday present for someone. i find it easy when we were financially not so independant. personally i find its easier to buy present when the person is a student or in the army. as long as th eperson is financially stable, in a way, its hard to get presents.

i'm having problem buying a present for a someone who is dear to me. so difficult. i asked "what do you want for your birthday? what does your parents usually give you......." "cake and ang pow" he replied. so i'm suppose to give you ang pow izit? i dun mind actually but its not so nice lah. so i'm cracking my brain for the past few days. i can smell my brain frying with all the hard thinking i'm doing. so i think and i think and i think to myself that maybe i can just buy him a mail-order bride? haha.....ha! lame.... it was funny the first time. some comments or jokes are meant to be mentioned once and once only. anyway i'll definately be able to find something that will be wonderful for him.

speaking about presents, having been in church for some 8 years , i've received a lot of gifts. but here are my most memorable gifts that i will always cherish till i kong ka kiao (tsk... it means die) anyway here's my top 3:

coming in at no.3 is a present from my last cg in youth. there was a period of time where ywam now know as twam was giving out extravagant gifts. i have no idea why the sudden phenomenon. its like all of us struck lottery or something. gifts like baby taylor guitar, expensive artistic photograph book from borders, mp3 players, pocket pc, printer etc. it all cost more than 3 figure sum. well, they gave me a mp3 player. they were actually quite good at getting people to share the cost of the present. if i'm not wrong my present was a gift from twam and my singers. thanks boys and girls.

coming in at no. 2 was a present that i really x10 to the power of infinity liked. its a gifts from my singers. they are a great bunch of people. well, they got me a ALICIA KEYS concert ticket. that was simply mind boggling.i still remember how they pass me the gift. it was during a dmm where pastor jeff was meeting all the cls and up in america room. so this sister came to me and passed me this huge card that all singers made and a while later she passed me a sistic "wrapper". the ticket was inside and i had no idea as i've not bought i ticket from sistic. anyway when i open it up, my jaw just dropped. my eyes was so big that its bigger than dunno what. i was very very happy and i proudly showed it to the twam people. ever since my alligence to alicia keys has been strengthen. she's really good. better than singapore idol by zillion times. thanks singers.

my no. 1 gift is not a possession or material thing. one of my ex-sheep from poly cooked me a big pot of pig trotters. actually it was his mum who cooked it. why was it my no 1 choice you ask. its really the effort and thought that has been put into it. the appreciation that is shown through that action. though its not expensive, it really touches my heart. whenever i think of this, i'll tear...... in my heart lah. thanks a million, dear friend.

my birthday is on the 20th sept. exactly 1 year after moving on to adults ss. that is also the first time i met cara, ying soon, candice and anne. they celebrated my birthday at suntec city's cafe cartel. it was nice but totally predictable. so as a supportive member i played along lor. act surprised. haha.

auf weidersen.

Living in anticipation and expectation

2006-08-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

It has been an interesting thursday and saturday, which is today, for me.

on thursday, for the firsta time, we went out for dinner and ice-cream. well i didn't have ice cream cos i was feeling cold so i had hot chocolate and frinds with dips. "we" comprises of my lecture mates. it was my suggestion to have a celebrative dinner outing with all of them. there was suppose to be around 8 of us bur 4 had work or exams the next day. i thought we couldn't have a great time but it turns out to be fantastic.

after exam, we were driven to our eatery. 2 guys and 2 girls. talking about the exams that has just ended. can you imagine, i'm almost finishing my advance dip in mass comm. 2 more modules and 1 graduation project and i'm on my way to my degree program. am still trying to figure out which field to pursue. am still trying to get all the information that i need.

anyway we headed to marina square upon my suggestion. some how or rather i always end up suggesting places for project meeting or initiating study groups they seem to think that i work for singapore's tourism board....... eventually we reached our destination. we proceeded to sakae sushi. it was my first time eating at sakae sushi. surprised? i'm not. its not like the food is fantastic or superb. its just ok lah. anyway everything to me is ok, in terms of food. i dunno how to differentiate what is good or bad. as long as its edible and doesnt taste really really bad, i'm ok with it. i'm not afraid to say that army food to me is ok.

after our dinner, we ended up have ice cream at swensens. like i mention before i didnt had it. interestingly, we got into a discussion about the role of a man in mordern singapore. well actually i was the one who led into this conversation as we were looking at phots of the other guy's girlfriend. ironically, we both, the guys, feel the same about the status of man in mordern singapore. we talked about equality between genders, the different types of labels man had been given and even into women being delusional about having a fairy tale kind of romance. but in reality will this kind of thing happen? no seriously.

i manage to know them better and we all agree that our next outing should be in a ktv cos 1 of them loves singing. now i'm stressed. everytime when people ask me to go ktv i'll give them the i-dunno-what-to-sing-cos-i-dun-listen-to-mandarin-songs reponse. thank God nicole is not going if not she'll keep on bugging me to sing that terrible "tong hua" song. it has ruined my life., my image, my reputation. arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!! :D ok nicole, in order to stop you from bugging me, i'll ask davyd to sing you that song or you want wilfred. of course you want wilfred lah. silly me. (A)

so much for thursay. actually that was not the highlight for this week. the highlight was actually today. cant stop smiling cos i had a chance to meet up with SAM GAN!!!!! hahahahahaha its been dunno how long since we actually had a one on one kind of conversation with tea and mudpies in front of us. the meet up was refreshing and fruitful. there was no mask, no stature (by the way he is holding a higher leadership position but i brought him into church so i'm still bigger. just kidding. we're both good friends.) it was a brief meet up but was fun. though it was only 150min we truly felt each other's sincerity. i thank God that i have a friend like him cos we sort of understand each other and its not easy to find someone who can understand you as an individual. i'm just glad that we've managed to share certain things and can keep each other in prayer. proud of you dude. am looking forward to the next meet up. think its gonna be a monthly thing just like team munch. i think i will grow fat...... like i care..... hahahaha

i was telling cara, yee kheng and tim that i'm starting a memory book. it'll contain photos of people who has given me good memories. i shall call my book "The chronical of Bao: the friend, the brother and the singer". its like a eulogy and its like if i become senile in future at least someone will bring me this book and i can look at it. so if anyone who visits my funeral and did not see your picture inside the book, it can only mean one thing..... you've been a bad boy or girl. then those around you will unanimously "orhhhhhhhhhhh" at you. hehehehe. so if you see me with my camera going around asking you to take picture with me you know what to do hor.

the next half year will be an exciting one for me. am looking forward to it and hoping to see my relationship with my lecture mates blossom.

living in anticipation and expectation. till next time.

auf weidersen.

240706300706

2006-07-30T20:11:00.000+08:00

its had to find something to write at times. just today, there's an article on the blogging culture in singapore. i encourage all bloggers to read it. its in the sunday time, life section. access yourself. what's your motive for blogging. its either you're treating it like an online diary like me, or simply trying to get the attention of others. you know what i mean.

My week from 24/07/06 to 30/07/06

Monday: busy busy busy........ with work. the new hillsong album came in this week and i had to process all the pre-orders and it amounts to thousands. seriously i have no idea what he fuss about hillsongs. i'm not putting them down, dun get the wrong idea, but there are many people out there calling in everyday asking when's the release date for it. are they really so dependant on them? worship God or worship the worship thats my question to them? anyway i'm not stopping them from buying. btw the album is so-so. i prefer their older albums. its not so "commercial" or am i showing sings of ageing.

managed to catch "oprah" on tv. i'm so happy. i've not seen it for dunno how long. she had a pathological liar in her studio. its really sad cos she lied about about thing in order to get the attention from her closest friends and worst of all, she doesnt feel and guilt at all. she felt "at peace" in fact. i simply dun understand. actually from her show i can learn lots of things like what a perfectionist can become if he/she goes kookoo.

i'm proud to say that i'm belong to an oprah groupie. if she runs for presidency, she'll sure win. hands down.

Tuesday: class day. got back my public relations individual assignment. PTL, i topped my class!!! but i have no idea what i've done that got me this grade as my assignments along with a few others have been sent to the exam unit for vetting. cant stop smiling. i've never topped in my assignment in any level of my studies. btw, if any of you are running for presidency or if your other half needs a PR "practioner" do engage me. i'm sure i'll be able to help them run a wonderful and memorable campaign.

Wednesday: caught singapore idol on tv and my goodness, why did they kick you out joanne in the first round? are the judges senile? it seems so. nebermind, next time we'll go together. you go in while i wait for you outside along with others like candy, nel etc.

Thursday: no cg this week for me. its on friday but i cant attend.

Friday: went to class. was suppose to get back our individual assignment but our electronic media lecturer who works as a journalist for CNA was telling us that he cant return it back to us as some of the assigments have been categorised under "plagarism" and is being sent to the exam unit for review. prayerfully mine is not part of those.

one of my lecture mates is taking a particular private university to court. he is sueing the school for the constant change of lectures over the span of his studies in that school; 4 months. he has since withdrawn and is now my lecture mate. we did discussed the case during our ten minutes break. using all those knowledge i've learnt from court room dramas and reality show like "alley mcbeal, the practice, boston legal, the law firm", we've both agreed that he'll probably lose his case. it'll be a miracle that he wins.

Saturday: stayed at home to study the whole day.

Sunday: did my first solo stage managing this morning. it was definately thrilling and not perfect. the difference between saturday sm and sunday sm is that sunday sm does not require you to stay at the FOH. you are stationed at backstage. there are a few adjustments here and there but the teams are competent. i do not need to chase them for lyrics and scream into the walkie "next slide! next slide!". that was fun. hehe. anyway enjoyed it today. had a chat with emma and irene, the sound gal. have been seeking advise from successful people. people who have "made it" in the working world. i myself am planning a career change next year. after my advance dip, i'll have to choose between venturing into the corporate sector or into tv/radio productions. i was telling emma that in order for me to look more mature, i need to get myself a pair of funky spec and grow a goatee. she agreed too. indeed if you are planning to work in a corporate sector you gotta dress to impress. if you are able to do tha, you've already won half the battle.

i've added a few people into my blog. visited their blogs. realised that today is membership class. congarts to siewling. now on her way to becoming a member of the church.

those who know me knows that i treat my sheeps REALLY REALLY REALLY well. ronnie is not doing so well. ever since his dad's admission into the hopsital he's sort of "vanished", not totally but i have a bad feeling. i dun want to be a prophet. he's been shuttling between pahang and singapore. its definately tiring. have been trying to contact him for the entire week but the hp is always telling me "the blah blah blah is current unavaliable, we'll send ur no via sms to the mobile subscriber" so i encourage all who knows him to start praying for him. its never too late. i've been praying almost everyday for him, i think. i tried. but i'm not losing hope and not giving up. so ppl, dun give up on him. dun you dare give up on him and on other ppl that have left. they are precious in God's eyes. there's a reason why God placed them into our lives again. God hears our prayers but i hope he knows that we're praying for him................

Random

2006-07-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

i can't believe it. its been almost 3 months since i last blogged. is it a good sign or a bad sign? oh well at least i'm blogging now.

i'm really amazed by a certain someone name livi. she can blog almost everyday. i just visited her blog and her archive is like huge and the list seems endless. how does she do it? well, lets just say that she is faithful in sharing her thoughts and feeling to the masses. i'll be the first to ask her to hand me all her stories on her blog cos i'll get them published into a book. i'm sure lots of people would like to read "the Memoirs of Livi". 1 word of advice livi, get copywrites for the contents of your blog.

i'm glad a certain someone name JT is doing well.

congrats to siewling for her obedience to be water baptised last sunday.

speaking about last sunday, davyd was seen at service. he was recovering from shingles. its a really disgusting diesease. for those who do not know waht it is, its like pox but way more disgusting. anyway to cut the long story short, i was on stage managing duty, i wasn't expecting him to turn up, came out after service ended, saw him, felt super estatic, went to him, gave him a big bear hug. so for those people who thinks that i am a cold and expressionless guy, you are wrong. i only do this kind of things when they are my.......... sheep. so dun expect me to hug you ok. and dun hug me unless you are certain individuals. my love language is words of encouragement and gifts. so no hugging no touching.

exams is in 3 weeks. what i bummer. one of my paper is after national. so it means i cannot rest. so it means i have that entire day to study. so it means.......... POOR BAO. btw, ronnie's birthday is on national day. speaking of which, he just came back from pahang. his dad is better now. but he will be shuttling back and forth to help out in his dad's business. prayerfully, his dad will recover really soon.

i have just discover that i have a phobia of crowds. not in terms of public speaking kind but its more of a place that is packed with people. its not claustraphobia also. i realised this when i was making my way home on train one day after work from lavander. everyday i'll have to pass by bugis and those who works around bugis junction know that the food court in bugis junction has the worse smell. just by walking pass the food court, you'll smell like it. some of you might not know but i have a sensitive nose. i can smell things. its like smell are amplified 10x. i'm like wolverine minus the claws and the rage and the skin tight costumes. anyway that day th etrain was super packed. and when it stops at bugis, truck loads of people just stream in. we were packed like sardines literally. at this point of time i was really feeling dizzy and queasy. firstly the smell and secondly i'm squeezed into a corner. i started to break out in cold sweat. no joke. i was really gonna freak out. in my mind i was trying to keep myself sane by talking to myself and praying. it was really bad. so now in order not to go through this again, i've decided to always take a less packed train.

just yeaterday i did an activity with davyd. we palyed games over msn. it was kinda fun. my first time actually. but i gotta admit, we are thinking alike now and i like that kind of feeling. it wasnt like that initaially but i'm glad things are better now.

met gerald yeo on the train today. i'm actually on mc for food poisoning today but i still went for class. anyway he looks thinner. had small talk with him. realise reagan came booked out of army just after 4 days he enlist. reason being he was given mc for some stuff.

i'm in a dilemma. should i go into corporate line or go into TV/radio line?

God if it is your will, show me the way.

auf weidersen.

Yeahs!!!

2006-04-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

Isn't it amazing that you get to see many things happening on the train everyday? For the past year, I’ve been taking the train to work daily and I never fail to feast my eyes on some drama. I’ve come up with a list of situations that irritates, disgust and funny to me.

Disclaimer: no animal was harmed, tested or killed

People who listen to their music so loud that even with your music on, you can still hear theirs! What up with that....
People who scratch their head and "snowflakes are falling on my shoulder" (hum to the tune of rain drops are falling on my head) yikes...
People who look over your shoulders to share the newspaper or magazine you are reading
Clipping their nails.
Digging their nose and then putting into their mouth. ewwwww.... no lah, they rub it off under the seat.
People who rush in from the interchange and sit heavily beside you. You can literally feel the earth shake.
Middle-aged auntie, with her butt facing you suddenly reached behind her and starts pulling her under pants because it ran up her arse. Why would anyone wanna do that in public? Would you? If you happen to see me on the train while you're pulling your under pants, pls don't call me. At that point of time, i am not your friend. If you call my mobile after I’ve alighted at the next stop I will respond to you.
People who doesn't give up their seats to pregnant ladies.
Kids running around the train, treating it like a playground.
People yawning without closing their mouth and as they yawn, it will be accompanied by the yawning sound. Not forgetting their morning breath. pppphew... stinko
People who like you so much that they choose not to shower, wanting to share their morning scent with you. How considerate of them.
People who choose not to move to the center
Seeing old ladies running into the train to "chope" seat when in fact they need assistance from a walking stick.

All these incidents are not made up. It happened there and then while I was minding my own business.

Just last week, I’ve received 1 of my marked assignment out of 2 that I’ve submitted over a span of 2 weeks. Well, I was kind of worried and excited at the same time. Thank God! I had received 25 out of 30 marks. I’m totally ecstatic. After calculating, its actually an A grade. I’m really pumped. After a 4 years hiatus from studies, I’m back to comparing grades and stuff. I remember on that night when I received my assignment from my Print Media lecturer, another classmate was with me. When my lecturer was looking at her marks I can’t help but peeped at it. I kept on asking: “how much you get, how much you get” we were like primary school kids. (She’s got 26 marks but her assignment has 20++ pages while mine has 7 pages) he also mentioned something that really gave me the confidence to do my best. He said that the class averaged around 20 marks for this assignment and we generally wrote better than the last few batches. So getting 25 marks was a great morale booster for me.

Today i got back my last assignment and guess what, i've got an A!!!! Thank God for His wonderful blessing and grace. its 2 for 2!! HAHAHAHA!!! i feel great. for the first time in my life i really felt i've managed to accomplished something academically. i've never gotten an A for any of my projects. even in poly, my grades averaged around Cs and Ds. i really feel that i was meant to do this field of studies. now its to mug for exams. its been a while. but i'm gonna do it.

So far school has been nice. I can really picture myself doing journalism but I realize that if you want to pursue this path, mentally and physically you have to be strong. Recently there has been TV programs that showcases the crimes Singaporeans committed. Many of them were rape cases and murder. It was pretty disturbing. Mentally I don’t know whether I can take that kind of pressure. Furthermore, as a reporter you need to visit the court and mortuary to get your story. Anyway its still early for me to decide what I wanna do. Lets hope that I can set my mind on something as I go along.

For the past 2 weeks, I’ve been feeling discouraged because of certain things. But when you choose to allow God to ease your pain away. Just this morning I was feeling down but then the Holy Spirit prompted me to listen to some worship songs from my player. My spirit was indeed lifted up almost immediately. God has given me peace and comfort.

I’ll be auditioning for mirza’s band after my exams. I’m so happy. Really missed performing. Hopefully I would be able to get in. he’s been kind to me. He actually declined my audition and invited me to join him. But there’s no vacancy for a frontman cos its been taken up by maryam. Btw she has a nice voice. Anyway I’ll be “auditioning” for a back up vocal position. It will be fun. who knows, i might be frontman no 2. thanks mir.

can't wait for the progress package money to come in. i could use some money. i'll be using it to buy a pocket pc cos i really need it. its gonna help me when i need to jot down some inspirations or quotes and words from books and other sources. if anyone of you have any lobang ps tell me.

till next time.

Auf weidersen

Grace so Abundant.

2006-03-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

Things has been looking great for me. God must have heard my prayers... i think i've prayed before, but anyway i am really glad that our caregroup is actually birthing out another caregroup and come this week we'll all be in the new caregroup structure. Nicole will be our new CL. we've given her a new name, actually its shufen who named her, we just ride on it. Nic's new name is call XING(1) MA(1). it means new mother or you can associate her new name with the likes of a mamasan. the rest of us are known as XING(1) XING(1) but i call the sisters in the new caregroup XIAO(2) JIE(3) or simply hostesses. well the guys have the toughest and biggest shoes to fill, we're the BODYGUARDS. it fits and flows better. the no of guys in our caregroup is growing. from me and samuel, ronnie was added last year, then last month timothy decided to come back to church and lastly junhuang is coming over this coming week. now we are 5 ppl but i know we'll grow even more and even outgrow the gals. the gals now stands at 7 ppl. barely 6months and i'm now functioning as a CLA. thank God for his grace.

in the recent breakthrough campaign, which was last year, i only made a monetarypledgebut not not in the areas of ministry etc as i was on a transition and do not know what to expect. just last week we had the 2nd round of pledge and this time round i made a ministry and studies pledge. i hope to be the top 10% in my cohort for my course and i hope our caregroup will birth another one by this year and also to disciple one person, guy especially. i think everything is falling into place cos during our adults regional team meeting, Ps jeff mention that this year one of the focus is to raise up more male leaders. this was mention after i made the pledge in the morning during service. for me, its a confirmation from the ONE up there. i was super happy when i heard this. throughout my years in church, i've always tried my best to raise up male leaders. the person who took over my pastoral ministry is a guy. the person who took over my singing ministry is also a guy. throughout church history there has always been more female leaders than male ones. but things have started to change as more guys are taking a step of faith to lead. i cant wait for the plans God has planned for me to unfold this year. be ready in season and out of season.

School's has been great. i've never studied so much in my life. i LOVE to study now. i enjoy my class and i am simply going all the way. i'm pratically making use of all opportunities to study. be it during lunch time or when i have nothing to do in office, i'll just take out my text and start to revise. not only revise but to read up chapters before they are even taught. i just hope that i'll not screw up during exams which is in 2 months time.

recently, one of our leader got hitched and was officially announced to be in a relationship. i was really happy but i wont be really happy till i 've interviewed that leader's other half and so we went out and had lunch blah blah blah. well i've given the leader's other half a pass cos i feel good about the person and know that that person will take care of the leader. actually during our sub-d leaders new year LOU HEY munch, i secretly prayed that the leader will get hitch this year and what do u know, prayer answered. haha

well my next project is to dicepher the davinci code book. have just finished reading the book. it's a great NOVEL. it kept me intrigue and glued to the book. but there are certain things that need to be explained as i myself started to question the truth. for the young believers, they will be misguided if they are not properly taught. thats why this project along with the other team players plays a huge part.

NG8B5 is mine to claim!!!!

Thanksgiving

2006-01-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

Many good things have started to happen in my life now. Truthfully speaking my spirit has not been on a high from Oct 05 to Dec 05. Struggling with new enviornment, new caregroup members, new leaders, new management style etc etc. But i Thank God that things took a turn for the better in the month of December. Due to the many holidays in december, i manage to get to know my caregroup better. Though many a times its not a huge group gathering, only a small group of 4s and 5s, we still manage to enjoy ourselves and had lots of fun. Ice skating, eating out at different restuarants, kayaking, suntanning etc etc. But the most important event that really turn my life around has got to be the date 23rd Dec 05. This day has definately made my life a lot better. Nothing could really made me happier than to see someone crossing the line of faith and accepting Jesus as their Lord and Saviour. Well, you've gussed it... He's my first sheep in the adults group. Below is his testimony....

Testimony by Ronnie Chee

Hi all, my name is Ronnie Chee. I'm a new believer. I just came into the house of the Lord less than a month ago. The reason that I decided to devote myself to Christ was because of the kindness shown by my Christian friends, and most importantly, to seek and comprehend the meaning of my own life. Back then, I was a short tempered person and always got upset and depressed in my workplace. But after my commitment to Christ, I have learnt a great deal through the teaching of the Bible. I have also become more joyful and feel less depressed by my work. The kindness from my fellow brothers and sisters has given me the strength to move on, and encouragement to get closer to God. Recently, there was a performance appraisal in my company (I am a new staff). To my surprise, I managed to pass my appraisal with flying colors along with various compliments from my superiors. I really like to take this opportunity to thank God for His blessing. I desire to move forward to achieve my goals in life under His teaching and guidance.

Its a simple but yet child-like, innocent kind of testimony. His testimony was read over the pulpit by Ps Dinah during our CNY Service on friday(she used it for her illustration in her sermon). He missed the service as he needs to visit his parents in malaysia. Having his testimony being read over the pulpit certainly surprised me and definately has put some pressure on me. Now its my duty to disciple him fully, not that i was not going to do it. even if his testimony was not being read i would still want to disciple him but now that its being read i'm giving myself more reasons to do it. To me serving God is the most important thing to me. And i know that God will take care of my family as i serve Him with my whole heart!

Just last week, on wednesday i was at fairfield methodist church waiting for yingsoon to turn up for my p&w practice fro CG when i received a call from my sister. She told me our father has been admitted into the hospital. Condition is critical. Anytime will "go up the car". at that moment i dunna how to feel. at hand i have a responsibility in CG on the other my father has yet to come to know God so if he was to die there and then thats means eternal seperation. so i have 2 choice. To go or not to go. I decided to stay. in fact i made up my mind quite quickly. things couldn't be any worse. YS send me an sms a few minutes later saying that he has left his guitar in his office. by that time, i think livi has stepped into the room. i seriously think to myself that things couldn't be going from bad to worse. God, are you testing me, messing with me. i really felt like killing someone. but i gotta say this. i think i've tone down alot ever since i came to adults. i would have slapped someone if not strangle someone if i was still in YWAM. Just kidding. anyway after the double blow. i was telling myself "ok nevermind, i can handle it. let me call alaric. ask him to bring guitar." but turns out he got class so not coming. i think to myself "ok nevermind. i ask yupei to bring. dunno she have guitar anot but i just ask" turns out she didn't pick up my call, twice. by this time YS has walked in, smiling. he then told me the last piece of bad news. "eh bao ah. the lyrics is in my guitar bag so have to write on the whiteboard." i do not know how to respond. so i just proceed to the whiteboard and start writing down the lyrics. probably i'm using this to help me focus on things that is more important than all the possibilities that might happen to my father.

CG started, cindy chaired, i was preparing to leave after i led p&w. halfway through cindy's "speech", my sis called. well cut the long story short. i left for the hospital not before i told my cg what happened. they prayed for me and my father. thanks ppl.

well my father is recovering very well. i really think its cos of all the prayers and visits that the cg has made. i was grateful to one of the leader who made an overseas call to me, knowing that my dad was in the hospital. thanks for being sensitive also by asking me for permission to ask other leaders to pray for my father also.

wanna thank the following ppl for their well wishers and visits: cindy, nicole, livi, susi, grace, yupei, candice, weiling, alaric, yingsoon, yingfang, cara, jacob and the rest who prayed. really appeciate it

Lastly, i urge you guys to trust in God totally. God will take care of your family as you serve Him wholeheartedly. i've come to experience it in a tangible way. may God continue to watch over you.

Peace.

Entertainment Review of Year 2005

2006-01-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

i was flipping through a magazine this afternoon during my break and came across this article that says "THE YEAR THAT WAS 2005". What exactly heads the headlines in 2005. here are a few that i think its worth mentioning....

1) Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie or you can call it the Bradgelina Saga.

it is true that brad pitt is the prince charming and he married one of the brightest star in "Friends" and they have been termed the golden couple, giving hope to people that celebrity marriages does seem to be able to last forever but seriously who are we kidding. even the once celebrated golden couple, nicole kidman and tom cruise, went splitsville(more about tom later). so will there be a fairytale ending to this bradgelina union? we can only tell in due time. lets hope that angelina doesn't keep brad's blood in a vial and wear in around her neck. by the way the world still loves angelina. she has adopted other kid, an ethopian gal, which hollywood celebrity will do this kind of thing. only angelina will do it.

2) Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes or you can call in the tall, innocent gal who was converted to sciencetology who was trying to boost the short guy's ego by slouching and bending her neck to look as if she is 2cm shorter than the short guy but who are we kidding.

its really funny to read about tom cruise giving katie holmes a baby scanning machine(dunno whats it called. its those that gynecologist use to scan for the gender of the baby and also to check the progress of the fetus) gotta give tom props for being creative. who would have thought of such a gift. recently it has been polled that tom and katie are the most irritating couple in the media and people do not want to hear about them no more. i gues enough is enough. they have been in the media for too long. ever since little tommy jumped on Ms "Queen of all talkshow" Orprah's couch, i've lost all respect for him. okok i sound too rough here. what i'm trying to say is that i dun enjoy his movie no more. his last movie, "war of the world" LAME! by the way i didnt catch it. my friend told me the ending and i was like DIAO...... let us all hold hands together and pray for holmes that she'll not sprain her neck in due time. with all the bending and slouching, i think she need to visit a chriopractor.

3) Michael "heal the world" Jackson acquitted of all child molestation cases.

SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Are they blind? Is the judge Blind? his lawyer has definately earned himself a reputation. gues he will be highly sought after. most probably russell crowe will need him to acquit him of all his assult cases. whatever.....

4) Fann and Chris have finally admitted that.......

Pfft..... as if i really care about them.

5) Famous Topless French Revue Crazy Horse in singapore (i still cant believe it)

yes its true. i was talking to a friend of mine over dinner about this crazy horse thingy. he was shocked at the amount of money($500) one has to pay to see these french ladies prancing around half naked. of course i told him he will not see them half naked cos there will be lights covering them. it can be tasteful to some and disgusting to some. i've never seen one and wont spend so much money even if i have the money. its not worth it but i guess singapore has lots of willing man who will patronise them. especially to those dirty old man. oh sorry, i forgot they dun have so much money. most prob they'll hang around pearl centre. for those ppl who've been there will know what i'm talking about.

6) Baby Boom in Mediacorp

so many babies so little time.

7) Mother Nature Did not make the front cover of Times Magazine's edition of Person of the Year, losing to Bono, Melinda and Bill Gates

Dun ask me why. they choose one not me.

8) Most Annoying Amphibian- the crazy frog who wears a helmet and kept singing "ding ding"

in my opinion another animal or should i say the song hits this list, the chicken little song. cannot tahan it. its EVERY WHERE!!!!!! Help me......... i'm melting....... ah...........

disclaimer: dun say i never say. no animals, human beings or living creatures have been hurt in this entry. ps do not send me to the authorities. i love world peace

A time to Reminisce the past year

2006-01-11T19:51:00.000+08:00

Its kinda late to be writting about this topic. 3 weeks into Jan 2006 and here i am just starting to talk about the past year. but i guess its better late than never.

just the other day, was back at work after the long holiday season, a customer from this particular church came to my workplace to make some purchase. i was kinda late for work so when i stepped into the office he was already waitin gfor me to process his purchase. as i process his purchase, he started to look at me in a weird way, trust me, its those that will get you paranoid. well anyway i start to get jittery and tried to concentrate on my work. then the silence broke......

Customer: do i know you from somewhere? i think i've seen you before.
Me, smiling and keeping my cool: izit? (in my mind "are you psycho or what?")
Customer: i know where i've seen you!
Me, starting to freak out but still keeping cool at the same time: oh really.
Customer: you are the one that......
Me, biting my nails and keeping cool, cutting him mid-sentence: one what? what one?
Customer: ..... one who was singing at the Narnia thing!
Me: hahahaha.... yah i was the one.

At that moment i was thinking to myself "should i be glad that someone actually recongized me or should i feel embarassed cos i know there were more bad sessions than good ones"

Anyway because of this particular incident, i can't help but start to recall all those song presentations and dramas and dances i've done in thye student group. it brings back great memories but also memories that makes me think "what was i doing...." =)

Here's some of the things i can remember. i won't say which are bad cos i think mostly are good... heehee

i've sang in japanese and spanish for 2 seperate services. it took me 1 week to momorise the japanese song. it was a few years ago. kept on listening and listening and listening till i got sick of the song. manage to pull through. i remember during practice, either geoffery or gerald from AWAM asked me, "eh you know how to speak japanese ah?" so funny. i wish i could. i remember those i am closer to making fun of me. even till now, they still make fun of me but in a good way lah. not those that breaks down your spirit kind.

For the spanish song....... i think i really sacrificed myself leh. why i say that? because 3 weeks before the ESS, i was recovering from chicken pox. so after i've cleared up, i went for the practice immediately and put up the song that week itself. the whole ESS was a success. truthfully, i enjoyed it cos it was a fun song to do and everyone, including the musicians were having fun.

Did 2 mandarin songs. one was with jacob, the other one...... dun want to mention. it gives me goosebumps. the song is too Rou(4) Ma(2). EEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! if my friends got to know that i sang that song, i'll be doomed. they would think that i've gone sissy on them.

Did a few comtemporary christian songs and secular ones. rock, mid tempo...... i dun think i've done any slow songs before. did a few x-mas carol presentations. co-led in 1 x-mas service with shirley and gwen. i personally like the ones i did with some youth leaders. it was a dance and song and rap item. very fun and very nerve wrecking. can see who has a talent form dancing cos some of them, their legs like hands and hands like legs.

talking about dancing, i danced twice. thats all i'm gonna say. but susi is a great dancer despite her age. she is quite nimble and agile compare to some of the younger kids. Alright susi, you've done our age group proud.

i remember there was a time where i co-led pnw in camp with priscilia and in service. that really create a stirring in my heart that that is what i wanna do for God. i'm praying that in adults i'll be able to reliaze this goal in my life again.

I'm hoping and praying this year, 2006, year of the dog, will be wonderful for me. my goals that i've set, my hopes and dreams will all come to pass. so far, i'm on cloud 9. but i have my doubts. izit too fast for me i asked myself recently. but i dun really care lah. i'm giving my best.

Only one life and soon will pass, only whats done for Christ will last....

Peace.

Male Bonding To The Max

2005-12-10T21:43:00.000+08:00

Ha ha ha.... i can smile from cheek to cheek now cos i've spent an entire day with the guys in my CG. what a fruitful day it has been. here's what we did today

1) met yingsoon at bukit batok 930am, was late for 10min, drove us to meet alaric
2) alaric met us, we were 15 mins late cos YS need top up his petrol
3) went to east coast, look for directions using directory
4) had macdonalds breakfast via drive through
5) parked at coasta sand resort
6) changed into out gear
7) went barefooted to the kayak site
8) called for the attendant to rent us the kayak, waited for 10min, someone "praise" the attendant for being late to us
9) kayak for 1hr, weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......... splish splash making us wet
10) sun wasn't that sunny cos block by the clouds but it was relatively good
11) went back to car to get our stuff to change in the washroom
12) changi, marina south, marina square.... where shall we eat? ok lets go to Carl's jr not Cow's jr
13) sourdough bacon burger combo was what i had
14) shopped around the newly renovated marina square, so nice
15) arcade time!!!!! didn't manage to destroy the last boss of KOF 2002
16) decide to go to YS place for a swim
17) drizzled so plan B
18) drank chinese tea, played with candy the dog, played boardgame "escape from atlantis" quite fun. should try
19) finally went for swim not really lah, end up chatting in the water
20) changed
21) time now is about 730pm, went for dinner at S11
22) ate and talked some more for 1hr ++
23) YS sent us to the nearest mrt
24) me and alaric took train home, talked again
25) home sweet home

things i learnt today...
1) nothing beats fellowshipping with brothers, meaningfully
2) everybody wants to enjoy so everyone was open to suggestions, no tension
3) be prepared for the trip, where to park, find out info etc so time will not be wasted
4) be open during conversation and of course genuine conversing cos you really want to know the person better and to enjoy, not for judgement purposes
5) meaningful fellowship adds strength and helps each other to carry on the walk stronger and further

disclaimer: all informations in our conversation will not be leaked out. its between the 3 of us.

next outing will be next year. 31st dec 05 will be my last ss in youth. after that will be ADULTS ALL THE WAY!!!!!!

felt really blessed.

SALE!!!!!

2005-11-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

Today was the 1st of 3 days of our warehouse sale. surprisingly ppl were already streaming in at 10am, which was the time we open up for sales. anyway there was the good and bad that i saw this entire day.

lets start with the good. this incident really warmed my heart. it shows that the love of God is transcended from strangers to strangers. there was this customer, a mother, who came in to buy some stuff. she didnt have enough to pay for one of her stuff so she put it back. by the way she was with her kids. the item she put back on the shelf was one of her kid's item. there was another customer who was behind her in the queue. he overheard the mother's conversation with her kid. so this person decided to bless this mother by paying for her "unpaid" item. they were strangers but they were strangers no more in that situation. they were a family, they were brothers and sisters......... in the house of God.

now the bad. i was scolded by my boss for some mistake that was not made by me at all. worst still i was given a slap on my back, not the kind that commends you on a job well done kind but those that can be used as evidence if i wanna bring the person to court kind. well i was really fustrated and it has been a long time since i had the feeling of wanting to cuss. of course i didn't do it lah. but the thought certainly came to my mind. it was that bad. there i was, working my ass off, mistake free for many months and what do i get, a slap on my back. man.... its tough, really tough. >_<

but being the much sanctified person that i am, i tried to calm myself cos if i dun, mistakes will start to escalate. its not worth it. i dun want another slap on my back. i did finally calmed down by eating chocolates. funny right? anyway i'm not angry anymore. my boss sorta apologized to me. in a very indirect way. very very indirect. dunno how to say also. i, of course have forgiven him.

2 more days for the warehouse sale. can't make it for shep's bdae celebration. gotta work. enjoy yourselves NG3B3.

decide to write on the current situation on Survivor: Guatamela. it's really funny that after 11 seasons, ppl are still thinking that being the final four is the way to go. what final four, it sthe final 2 we are talking about man. as usual at this point of time where there is only 9 days left in the game, there is the powerful group with the majority in numbers and the outcasts aka minorities. but in all seasons, its a tradition that ppl in the minority have the most fighting spirit and the thirst for surviving in the game. they will find all ways and means to get them into the final 2 or to say stay in guatamela for the next 3 days. trust me, danni & lydia (outcasts) will certainly find a way to get themselves back into the game. judd is a no brainer. he speaks without knowing that ppl are listening and remembering every single word he says. he will be gone very soon. if my predictions are right, if lydia and danni manage to get rafe(gay guy) to join their alliance, judd will be gone next week. i hope it does happen cos judd has no freaking idea how to play the game of survivor. a word of caution to stephanie(if there was any chance that she will read this entry) she better be careful cos her reputation has been damaged, i think she should be the one working harder to keep herself in the game rather than lydia. (btw she mention that lydia should work hard if she wanna stay in the game. but matter of fact lydia is one of the hardest worker in the tribe) but in the game of survivor, anything is possible. but these 9 remaining days is gonna be exciting. just watch out for it.

well thats all folks. see ya next time.

Man and Woman

2005-11-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

Before reading this entry, a word of caution. ps read this objectively. its not written to put anybody down. i'm not refering to anybody here so if you still feel like giving me a piece of your mind then go ahead. i understand where you're coming from. =)

I was doing some reading and did some thinking about the roles and responsibilities of the male species in the 21st century.

Ya know in the 19th century, man took their responsibilities seriously as the head of the family. they will provide, protect and prevent any harm from happening to his beloved family. anyone who tries to mess with his wife or kids will eventually end up on a head to head confrontation with the man himself. that certainly make sense as the family is his pride and joy and it means everything to him, even to the extend of sacrificing his life for his family.

In the OT, man are kings, prophets, priest etc. mainly holding important roles or positions. women only step up to the game if there was a need like what happen to Queen esther. she took up the role of fighting for the people cos the man became a..... (cant think of anything to describe him) AHHH!!!!! scardy cat, how's that.

Anyway my point is this.... i'm not demeaning the female species. don't get me wrong. i know some people might think i'm an egomaniac after reading this entry(look what happens to YS blog after the entry on parking) but it doesn't bother me at all. its up to you to judge. Back to my point. without them, the female species, there will be no offsprings at all. without them, there will be no great bible characters like the prostitutes (or izit just a woman?) by the well, mary magdalene, ruth, esther etc. i'm totally grateful to their contributions. all these ladies are worth mentioning in the bible cos they were outstanding, and that's a big thing.

But i feel that as the years goes by, the responsibilities of the man has slowly been "degraded". take for an example, have you heard people saying this: "he's getting in touch with his feminine side or he's a metrosexual " nothing wrong with that. i myself am like that. i do want to look good. i do believe in taking care of my temple(my body etc) but i just feel that there are man out there who cares about nothing but looking good thus leaving the responsibilites of a man to a woman. and that is whats happening. i've seen it with my own eyes and its disgusting. what happen to the maleness that God created in the first place. what happen to the "rule and reign" part. in a generation where the media promotes things like "man don't get it", the feminist movement etc.

Do you know that when the feminist movement was triving in the U.S, a court case was called upon by this female lawyer. she and her client, a young girl was sueing a toy departmental store for.... get ready.... for seperating the GIRLS toys from the BOYS toys. she of course was a feminist. she claims that the store is doing psychological harm not only to her client but to many other kids as well, girls especially. when i read this from a book, i was like DIAOZZZZ......

Anyway in a post moredernist society like singapore, there are many young singaporean girls out there who believe that they are of equal stature to men. they believe that they can earn more money than man, which is true. the girls in singapore started everything a step faster than the guys as they need not attend national service. so they have the privilege of entering the uni or working world earlier. this thing just came into my mind. whats with guys that help their gals carry their handbag. does carrying their handbag mean they're more gentlemanly, more sensitive, more in touch with their feminine side, more metrosexual..... and the list just goes on and on. will i be sued if somebody from the government body read my entry? am i being political here? nowadays its not so safe to write your views anymore.

Talking about equality, i think no matter what, the female species will triumph. here's why. the female species demands that they be treated equally, job opportunities etc, but at the end of the day you can't help but realise that the ladies can still flirt their way through to the top. i'm not saying all but there are some who does that. the bible has already mention that the fall of men is women. no wonder more and more guys are turning gay cos they cant function properly their duties.

But i'm glad that there are still some good old fashion man of God out there. i'm glad that in church we've been taught to follow the bible and not the systems or influences of the world. the model couples in our church are definately setting a great example. Ps Ben and Ps Dinah, Ps Jeff and Claudia, Ps Law and Pat, Elson and Limei. all these couples are biblical couples. the man leads and does his job, the women listens and follows and of course discussion do happen.

so in a world of feminism, where does the male species stand?

WILD WILD WEST

2005-11-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

Wow.... what a day. what a tiring day!!!! i am really tired after all the running and climbing and swinging and jumping and sweating also............. tanning abit lah. it was a fun fun day at west coast park. never knew it was so beautifully renovated. there was a great place, or playground if you wanna call it, for kids to play. even big kids like me kinda enjoyed the whole process. but it was not just a normal play thing, it was a competition too. i had the opportunity to be a team leader and AHEM.... i led my team to win a 1st runner up prize that cost $*.**(i know the price cos when i open up i saw the price written on it. its hilarious)

wanna thank my team that consist of alaric, corney(a pre-believer who's alaric's friend) donald (also alaric's pre believing friend), yu ru and "apple center" (i'm sorry. i really can't remember your name bro) with the 6 of us we won a 1st runner up prize. it was a victory that could not have been done without all of their support and hard work. a job well done guys and gals.

"Hey group 3 you're so fine
You're so fine we blew their mind
Hey Group 3
Hey Group 3"

speaking of alaric, i realised that its only at "outings" that i got the chance to get to know him better. i got to know samuel a bit more at the bbq. well, i think alaric is a cool guy. simple also. has big dreams for God. he wants to be a missionary.

btw cara said that i'm an arty farty kind of guy cos i dun blog frequently. so i told her i only blog when i have the feeling and when i have the time cos blogging is not something that is done in a wishy washy way. i'm officially a normal/arty farty/ grumpy/vehicle com for my shepherd/ dunno what else lah. so many i cant even remember.

i got to meet my first singing "shi fu", ying chuan today. she is ying fang's elder sister. was surprised to see her and happy also. i hope she see that her effort spent on teaching me has not gone to waste.......

went to geylang serai. it was an experience i will never want to do again. once is enough. though it was uncomfortable(all the screaming and jostling and pushing) but the enjoyable part is that we(10 in all) walked through together before ending our journey with "you tiao da wang". over at the eatery, ying fang said that i am matured for my age. she was refering to my thinking not my looks. yes i know some of your reaction will be like >.< but i dun care =P

ok, i think i've blogged enough. gonna eat my dinner and watch soccer with joe later.

btw, kendra is the winner of The Apprentice and i know who's th ewinner for Project Runway. who wants to know just tell me.

World peace.

Here I Am

2005-10-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

Thanksgiving...

Firstly, Just wanna take this time to thank all those people who have made our stay, so far, in NG3B3 so wonderful. Really enjoyed the BBQ at my shepherd's(ying soon) place. Now i have a new place to visit frequently. His place has such a big pool! i'm gonna love that place. That's for "wet swim" and as for "dry swim", hahahahaha..... i can now fing cara(my SDL), nicole(ex-Ul), livi and myself. now all we need is a place to play. i suggest my shepherd's place. i think its a very very very good choice.

Secondly, one of my prayer is that my shepherd needs to know how to drive and have a car. well the first has been answered and as for the 2nd one... pnly answered TODAY!!!!! YS has gotten a new job which pays quite ok and provides company car... no van. not just any van but a MERCEDES VAN!!!!!!!!! how Cool is that. he just gave me a lift and i meant just. its a nice looking van. not those lousy old old kind. its those van that can sit 10 people and looks like a maxi cab. yahoooooooo!!!!! now can sit in his van and go for road trip. all the way to jb for shepherding.

thirdly, the BBQ was great. thanks to shufen who helped me set the fire with me. for ee fang and cindy who helped to cook, for candice and grace who shelter us with their umbrellas when we set the fire. it was super hot that day. and also for thosde that came.

fourthly, for tbk who helped me get a new tower. thats why i can blog now. i owe him 1 teh bing. will give to him on sat.

Commercial break..... on tv now is showing Lost. with every life taken from this earth, a new life is borne into this earth.

fifthly, got to meet up with a backslided friend. talked and ate. really fruitful. he just sms me yesterday to pray for him.

Will update again soon.

PC under Repair

2005-10-12T12:58:00.000+08:00

many people are asking me why i've not updated my blog since september 11. well for the simple reason that my home pc is spoilt but you've not seenthe last of mr bao. i'll be back.

btw, i think cara is cool cos she knows how to play mahjong. furthermore she's my SDL. 1 game someday cara?

Wonderful Night

2005-09-11T02:31:00.000+08:00

The joy of serving you

its a totally wonderful feeling when you know that your labour in God is not wasted. last night was my appreciation night from my singers both past and present. basically they planned a farewell for me cos i'm moving on to the adults service. things has been tough for me. leaving behind my beloved group of singers whom i've grown to enjoy being with. words cant express the amount of gratefulness and thanksgiving i have towards them. they are always so loving and caring though they have to endure the crap that i gave them at times.

listening to them affirming me is kinda weird. i've never thought that i'm like that. i mean like what they described me to be. never in my life would i think that i've impacted their lives. i really appreciate them alot.

felt like crying when i was affirming one of the brothers. choked on my words. was looking at him and felt bad cos i'm leaving behind a "younger brother", a younger brother that i've never had in real life. he has grown alot. i'm always watching out for him. protecting him. i know he will be a great and powerful leader. year 2007, youth 10th anniversary, when i come back i hope to see and hear good news from him. lead worshipper is my challenge to him.

wanna thank all of them, debbie, jency, kim, winstar, qianjin, samuel, lolita, sharlene, gwen, candy, joanne, jeremy, nel, pearline, for giving me all these wonderful momories. its a once in a life experience which i will bring it with me to my new group and till i die. i hope to see all of them in the senior citizens service with me, that is if i am still alive lah.

peace out

What A Day

2005-09-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

From down to up.

today has been a roller coaster for me. emotions running amok. had to be at work at 8:30am! can you believe it. usually at this time i'll be just on my way to work. cant believe that i woke up at 6 plus to get myself ready. craziest thing is that it was raining and we all know that this is the best time to snooze.

everything was so slow paced. the train was slow. the train was crowded. the train was slow... wait did i just mention that. oh i did. anyway

*opening theme song for ANTM. tyra banks slowly sashay in. *

tyra: whats up y'all (snap fingers 3 times like anita sarawak. ma chiam like diva)
tyra: now mr bao... tell me why you have to be at work at such an early hour?

bao: it all started when my biggest boss told my GM that he's meeting the 2nd big boss of intergity music this morning at 9am. so my Gm to me and the rest of my collegues to turn up at 8:30am. i was like really pissed cos its so hypocritical. just because he is coming doesnt mean that we have to prepare ourselves specially for him. fyi (snap fingers 3 times like anita sarawak. ma chiam like diva) i heard from my collegues that he turn up once is a blue blue blue blue moon.

tyra: ok ok. i can tell that you are unhappy about this cos its so not professional and so not glam.

bao: anyway... this morning i turn up at 8:30am. my GM and my sales manager are not there! i felt so cheated. this whole experience reminded me of my army days when CDF came not once but thrice to our camp for a visit and hold his dialogue with other high ranking officers or should i say his bootlickers. we were force to clean up the whole building, all 4 levels of it. staircases, rooms, corridors, offices etc. we cleared up till quite l late. it was horrible. but from this exercise, God showed me who i can trust and who i should be aware of. who are the hardworking one, who are the lazy as hell ones. not forgetting whose afraid of roaches big time.

bao: so are you saying these in a bad spirit?

bao: well, i think i was but i guess i learnt that in all work places there is/are bound to be such cases. i'll surely experience all these events again. i just hope that all these things we've done will leave a good impression on him.

tyra: i'm glad you figured it out.
tyra: well, till next time. this is your resident dive, ms banks signing off. (snap fingers 3 times like anita sarawak. ma chiam like diva)

*ending credits*

can you imagine that, ms banks interviewed me. anyway i'm not angry anymore cos METAMORHOSIS was great!

Metamorphosis.

the concert was stupendous. the atmosphere was electrifying. all my sadness and tiredness was taken away when i praised our Living God. i felt energized. i felt YOUNG!!! i felt like doing it all over again. my singers were great as well. they supported with all their might though all of our vocals sux. musicians dun laugh cos music also not that great. hahahaha!!!! kidding lah. it was ok. messy but still ok. thanks to reagan. he sabo all of us with an impromptu song and it turns out way better then some of the other planned songs. well, metamorphosis is not only for the NB this time but i felt that all of us need to "morph" consistantly in order to become like Christ. tis will be the last time i'll get to experience such electricfying atmosphere cos in 2 weeks time i'll be in the adults group. no more planetshakers, no more united live.but i hope i can make a difference by introducing new songs to them. be it songs from israel & new breed or katinas etc. lets see what 2006 has in stored for me.

peace out.

Almost There...

2005-09-06T16:23:00.000+08:00

Nouveau Commencement...

A new beginning is what my title says. it also marks the beginning of many things that i'll be venturing into soon.

i've decided to close down my previous blog, www.xanga.com/ah_boy because i've come to a point where i need to start afresh again. i started blogging when one of my friend in camp told me about it. i'm one of his blogging convert. i find it quite interesting and i realise that whatever i "say" in here is up to the judgement of others so its pretty much like telling the world "if you've been offended by what you've just read then sorry, too bad." well i'm not some punk with an attitude. so lets get started.....

Reality - The totality of all things possessing actuality, existence, or essence.

if you've caught the recently aired episode of ANTM season 4, you could have seen the one where tyra banks screamed at 1 of the girls. here my take on this whole drama mama thingy.....

*opening theme song of jeopardy*

welcome to the game show: Jeopardy where contestants gets to answer questions that does not really matter to them but they are answering it just for the fun of it and simply because its on my blog..... and i'm your host Mr Bao.

Question: Why did Ms Tyra Banks tekan that balck girl?

1) ms banks has a bad hair day
2) ms banks is getting old and still single
3) ms banks couldn't answer the age old question "why did the turkey cross the road?"
4) ms banks is having PMS
5) ms banks wants to show her who is the real diva in the show
6) i dunno and i dun care
7) all of the above

the answer is 3! why did the turkey cross the road?

so why did the turkey cross the road? because the chicken is on leave lah. hahahahahahahahaha

till next time, hope you've enjoyed Jeopardy where contestants gets to answer questions that does not really matter to them but they are answering it just for the fun of it and simply because its on my blog..... and i'm your host Mr Bao. sinei kuda sai

*closing credits*

so is it really true that ms banks cant answer tha turkey question, i dun think so. its probably due to all the criticisms that she been getting. viewers are saying that after 3 seasons, she still cant host. the show is definately in need of a new twist and that is why both girls are eliminated from the show on the same night, a definate first in the history of ANTM.

the american network company or should i say the producers of all reality shows are quite competitive. if the previous season of any show bombed, they'll try to revive it in the next season. for example survivor vanuatu. it was a complete bored and ratings well down the scale. the characters in the show was boring, there was not much drama, that season was a complete snooze. thinking of it makes me wanna sleep. makes me wanna join one season and show these people how it should be played. hey i'm one big survivor fan. i've caught all the season except for one when i was in BMT. so far i still find survivor: outback and the original survivor one of the best.

anyway what i saying here is that the producers of survivor decided to bring back all those voted out survivors in one of the season to form a new tribe. so instead of th eusual 2 tribes, now there are 3 tribes. the catch is this. if the tribe consisting of all the "dead" survivors won that challenge they will send in 2 of their members into 1 tribe each and the losing tribes, which are the other 2, will have to vote 1 person out of their tribe. so low and behold, the dead tribe won thus sending 1 person into each tribe and of course ratings flew sky high after that twist in the show.

editors note: the 2 newly resurrected survivors lasted till the final 3

so here's an example of how desperate network companies can be. so ms banks, good one but not good enough. (as if she can hear me lidat)

anyway ANTM season 5 is premiering on 21st of this month in the U.S

What a Blessing.

ever since i've ORD, i've wanted to study but i realise that its kinda hard with the financial problems happening in my family. and because of this i decided to work and help my family to lighten the load. its definately not easy for me cos i was sorta thrown into the unknown. i have no idea whats happening, how to do it, but i guess i learnt along the way. now i'm paying bills and supporting my family. i might not have much but i give an much as i can cos God has never short change me. i was provided with a job that allows me to serve. from 5 1/2 day work, i bargained to a 5 day work week. i learnt also that i need to save cos i gave it all in the TIN project. even so i told myself that i have to be stingy with myself but be generous with others. grumbling and complaining has happened before especially those days when i have to foot the bills. but come to think of it, i'm much better off than many others who doesn't even have a roof over their head. sometimes i wonder, is singapore real? low crime rate, clean, not hit by natural disasters. we might get complacent some time or should i say many times. we're living very comfortably here and yet there are some, like me still complain of having not enough. if war does happen in singapore. i think we'll sure die cos we cant make it lah.

anyway the blessing is this, my mum has offered to sponsor my studies next year. my plan was to actually......

*opening theme song of jeopardy*

welcome to the game show: Jeopardy where contestants gets to answer questions that does not really matter to them but they are answering it just for the fun of it and simply because its on my blog..... and i'm your host Mr Bao.

Question: what would Mr Bao do if he wants to study?

1) get a loan
2) save up
3) none of the above
4) marry a rich woman

the answer is 1! get a loan. tsk tsk tsk, what are you people thinking. i'll not marry a rich woman lor. i'll marry a very very rich woman.

till next time, hope you've enjoyed Jeopardy where contestants gets to answer questions that does not really matter to them but they are answering it just for the fun of it and simply because its on my blog..... and i'm your host Mr Bao. sinei kuda sai

*closing credits*

well, i'm blessed. thats all can say.

peace...

Renovating

2005-09-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

in the process of completing my new blog.......